Tell You What I Know

I have been writing for 7 hours straight...it doesn't even seem that long. I am amazed at how this book is seamlessly coming together. It's like I'm not even thinking as I'm writing...like it's just pouring out from the innermost places of my heart.

Sometimes, I have to stop, and read back over what I wrote a few times, because I was in almost a trance like state as I pushed the keys on my laptop. I just KNOW that I'm going to read back gibberish...but, it's not...it's exactly what I meant to say...‪#‎craziness‬.

This story is hard to tell...it often has me feeling some kind of way...it's my truth in its rawest form...and I feel so naked. But, I can't bare to make it any other way. Any other way would be an injustice. Its the truth that is gonna help somebody.

I didn't erase anything...i left the 19 chapters as they were...and after falling sleeping last night feeling defeated, and concerned...I woke up this am, with an idea and a plan. Watching it unfold is like watching a miracle. I'm about to be a published author!!! My 5th grade teacher spoke it into my life over 20 years ago. I remember it like it was yesterday...she looked me in the eyes and said "you're going to write a best selling book one day!" I hope to God that she's still alive so that I can deliver a copy to her.‪#‎anotherdreamcomingtrue‬ ‪#‎dontgiveup‬ ‪#‎persistencepaysoff‬‪#‎tellyouwhatiknow‬ ‪#‎yourgiftwillmakeroomforyou‬ ‪#‎happygirljj‬‪#‎everydaysanadventure‬ ‪#‎ilovemylife‬

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Jj's Year of Coming Of Age: Day 152- Spillin' the Tea -Part 3- Chronicles of the Sidechick Wife...Not a Typo.

livid, adj . [Screw] you for cheating on me. [Screw] you for reducing it to the word cheating. As if this were a card game, and you sneaked a look at my hand. Who came up with the term cheating , anyway? A cheater, I imagine. Someone who thought liar was too harsh. Someone who thought devastator was too emotional. The same person who thought, oops, he's gotten caught with his hand in the cookie jar . [Screw] you. This isn't about slipping yourself an extra twenty dollars of Monopoly money. These are our lives. You went and broke our lives. You are so much worse than a cheater. You killed something. And you killed it when its back was turned" -David Levithan, The Lover's Dictionary I'm gonna get back to my Asperger's list tomorrow...but, I had something really interesting happen today...and I want to talk to ya'll about it... I've got a question for you... "Would you stay with your man if he cheated on you, and a baby was conce

Jj's Year of Coming of Age: Day 178- Spillin' Tea- Cussin Mad...And Tryin' To Forgive...

"I used to think that the worst thing in life to end up alone. It's not... The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel alone. " -Robin Williams Pictured above...2013...My son Israel and I in our new home after 31/2 years of on again, off again homelessness. We were pretty stoked. Right now is truly one of the best times of my life...go figure. FINALLY...after all of the hurting, pain. suffering...sacrificing, fighting, surviving... darkness, confusion, fear...shame, depression, and loneliness...My dreams...my vision of what my life was always supposed to be, even as a little girl- is materializing and indubitably coming to pass. And while I should be over the moon- flipping cartwheels, not caring if the world sees my panty drawers, and skipping around singing the smurf song...happy as a pig in fresh poo...I'm not... Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful...beyond grateful...honored...humbled, and not taki

Happy New Year to ME! (Yes, I know that it's November...Don't judge me, you don't know my life)

"Because true belonging only happens when we present our authentic, imperfect selves to the world, our sense of belonging can never be greater than our level of self-acceptance. " -Brene' Brown As you know (If you've been on this blogging journey with me for a while) November is when MY new year starts for some reason...I think it may have something to do with my biorhythms or something...but, major life changes ALWAYS happen for me starting in November. (I just moved back to NYC November 1st...this was not planned...I just happened to have a show here, and thought it would be a good time to do so...) So, although I know that we are 10 days into my New Year...this is day one of a new chapter in my blog (don't judge me, you don't know my life!) ... if you are new...welcome...fasten your seat belt, and enjoy the ride...I'll bring ya back! If you have been ridin' with me...lol...I hope you're not car sick...cuz, we are about to turn up t

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