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You Ma'am Are An Idiot.

idiot sa·vant
\ˈē-ˌdyō-sä-ˈväⁿ, or same as idiot and for respective sing and plural forms\noun plural idiots savants \-ˌdyō-sä-ˈväⁿ(z)\ or idiot savants \-ˈväⁿ(z)\ 1
:a person affected with a mental disability (as autism or mental retardation) who exhibits exceptional skill or brilliance in some limited field (as mathematics or music) —called alsosavant 2
:a person who is highly knowledgeable about one subject but knows little about anything else Once upon a time I dated a guy who got frustrated by the way that my friendships tended to go with people. We argued about it quite frequently. I gave...they took...
I was left without...they took some more.
When I was down and out...they disappeared.
When they wanted something that they felt that I could provide...they reappeared and the cycle started all over again...
All along...I tried to understand their situation...tried to treat them the way I would want someone to treat me....and continued to called them "friend." In exaspe…

Unconditional Love

‪#‎lifegoal‬ when it's all said and done...I want my life to LOVINGLY express truth (in all things, speaking truly, dealing truly, living truly) enfolded in love, to grow up in every way (to be completely mature) and in all things become more and more like Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One)who is the head of His body, the church. In short. I want to know the full and accurate knowledge of Christ...and to be just like Him. Nothing else matters. THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT!!! Ephesians 4:13-15 ‪#‎bottomlines‬‪#‎iwantwisdom‬‪#‎iwanttoloveunconditionally‬‪#‎dyingdaily‬‪#‎growingingrace‬‪#‎growth‬‪#‎refinement‬‪#‎happygirljj‬‪#‎neverashamed‬

I Ain't Perfect...

" NOT going to sin is going to be a great day." 9:03am-I sinned*
"Stupid. Stupid. Stupid!
What's wrong with me???
Why can't I get it right?
Why am I such a mess up?
It's hopeless...I want to do right...I just dont. God could never be happy with me...maybe I'm just not capable of living upright for God. Am I cursed?" Once upon a time, this was my internal conversation when I would read scriptures like 2 Chronicles 16:9
that basically states that: God looks for those whose hearts are perfect or blameless toward Him. My heart was a garbage dump, and I knew it, and my life was a cesspool of sin. I was anything but what I thought was "perfect and blameless." I felt like a failure...and didn't know how to fix it. The more I tried to be "perfect" the more messed up I was. I was miserable. Kinda like Paul was... (read Romans 7:15-25) That was until I learned what a "blameless and perfect heart" reall…

Beauty For Ashes

One of the worst experiences one can have is...being manipulated, deliberately mistreated and outright used by someone you love. It's a deep mental and emotional hurt which can psychosomatically become a physical pain that I wouldn't wish on anyone. The smile that you see is one that has taken much prayer and crying out to God to produce. Many days all I wanted to do was draw the curtains, roll up in a ball...and wish to die...or for Jesus to break the sky...which ever would come first. I would stay in my "prayer closet" hidden away from everybody and everything until I could press into God's Presence and get the peace, joy, strength, love, and hope that I needed just to walk out of the door and face the day...everyday. Depression, weariness and heaviness attempted to drown me, and was always close by if I so decided to grant it an audience...despite all of the great friends that I have...and those who love me, and are always praying for me...I felt so alone. Re…

Keep the Main Thing...the Main Thing.

The main to keep the main thing...the main thing. The main the Word and presence of God. I have learned that when I personally allow myself to become distracted with the things of this world...slipping, stumbling, and falling short is not far behind. It can be likened to skipping the gym for a few weeks, or becoming lax with discipline in your diet-indulging in too many empty carbs...pounds WILL return without you even noticing. If we become careless, and lackadaisical with our private time with God...sin will creep into out hearts while we are unaware. And what is in our hearts will eventually be present in our actions. "Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." Proverbs 4:23. The key to success in the daily walk of a believer, is to keep the main thing front and center. FOCUS on yourself up and continually wash your heart with the up your resistance to sin by spending time in His presence- and …

Destined For Greatness

No one can keep you from your destiny. Your destiny is in God's hands. No matter what people do to you. Forgive and move forward. The only person that can stop your destiny is you-if you make the choice to remain bitter. God will fight your battles...He will keep you in perfect peace as He works all things together for your good. Even if you don't FEEL like praying for your it anyway-God will reward you for your obedience. Trust His love for you. Trust His promises...One that works me is...Isaiah 61:3
To all who mourn... he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory." Keep looking up's gonna be okay! ‪#‎goditrustyou‬‪#‎ilovemylife‬‪#‎happygirljj‬‪#‎imabeokay‬‪#‎forgiveness‬

Strength, Courage & Wisdom

God, I Trust You...Today.

There is safety and a blessing in God's "NO!" I wanted God to change my situation...but God wanted my situation to change me...The outcome may not look good...but God IS good...and He knows how to put you where you are supposed to be...and work it all together FOR your good. I learned to not fight the not let the pain push me to despair but, to my knees. I chose to trust and work WITH God...I embraced the jacked up circumstance, and learned to stay in peace. To take my anguish to His throne...To seek God and His ways with ALL my heart. To learn to see myself as He sees me...more than a conqueror. A mighty woman of valor. More precious than rubies. Made in His image. To be loved, cherished, honored...treated as the precious priceless gem that I am. If we work with him, seeking Him with all our might...not seeking the "miracle"...or the "fix"...but HIM...not the "gift" but the "giver" or the "way", but the &…

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