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Jj's Year of Coming of Age: Day 178- Spillin' Tea- Cussin Mad...And Tryin' To Forgive...

"I used to think that the worst thing in life  to end up alone. It's not... The worst thing in life is to end up with people  who make you feel alone. " -Robin Williams



Pictured above...2013...My son Israel and I in our new home after 31/2 years of on again, off again homelessness. We were pretty stoked.
Right now is truly one of the best times of my life...go figure.
FINALLY...after all of the hurting, pain. suffering...sacrificing, fighting, surviving...
darkness, confusion, fear...shame, depression, and loneliness...My dreams...my vision of what my life was always supposed to be, even as a little girl- is materializing and indubitably coming to pass. And while I should be over the moon- flipping cartwheels, not caring if the world sees my panty drawers, and skipping around singing the smurf song...happy as a pig in fresh poo...I'm not...



Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful...beyond grateful...honored...humbled, and not taking one iota of recognition or merit from t…

Jj's Year of Coming of Age: Day 167 Sippin' Tea: An Open Letter To My "Number One Fan"...

"The worst part of success  is trying to find someone who is happy for you." -Bette Midler

An open letter to my "Number One" Fan:

*clears throat* *sips tea...literally*



Sooo...It's 5am...and I'm still up working...but, I took a break to just look at my schedule...and I found myself a little choked up...I mean...I've had lights cut off (water too)...been evicted...had cars (CARS...plural) repoed, been hungry...slept on trains, been homeless, washed up in sinks, slept in houses with rats and roaches,and busted windows, couch surfed, busked for money, I've been robbed (at gunpoint) after doing a show that was going to get me and my family out of an extended stay hotel and into our own house...and slept on a stranger's couch for a month until I could make it all back. I've been taken advantage of, lied to, worked over, hustled, cheated, stolen from...worked 5 jobs at once, been fired a few times...and hired more times than a little bit, and still no…