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JJ'S YEAR OF COMING OF AGE- DAY 1- SOME CALL ME SELFISH, ILL BE THAT

Just because you give birth to a child, doesn't mean that you own them or their futures. Teach a child your core values, and your faith...and let them soar. Stop trying to live two lives through your child. Your journey is not necessarily theirs. They have their own dreams, their own destinies, their own paths...their own lives to live. The very best gift that we can give our children is our unconditional love and support as they find themselves...they have a right to the pursuit of happiness, and to just be. They don't owe you anything... no matter how much you spent on them, nor how many hours you were in labor.
 -JJ Thames

I recall saying as a little girl that I didn't want any children, didn't want to get married...was going to live in the city in a high rise or a loft...own a nightclub/restaurant where I could sing whenever I wanted to, travel the world, make records, and be a writer...traditional life was never for me.

Everyone told me I was crazy and that I would change my mind as I got older. That the life that I was talking about was a lonely existence...and no one wanted to truly be alone. I listened to them, and tried it their way. Now I see my life coming around full circle to what I said it would  be in the first place, and every day truly is a holiday!!! There's a peace and joy as the Jennifer that I always envisioned emerges. Some call it a selfish and self-indulgent life...#Illbethat after all, it's my life to love and I'm happier than a piggy in poop! 

I don't regret taking another journey to get here...I love my two boys, and am thankful that God saw fit to make me their mom. I'm glad I experienced marriage...I'm even glad that I experienced living in environments other than the city...every step that I took was ordered and brought me here. I am NOT saying that any of my choices were mistakes...just character refining lessons to be learned. Adventures that shaped me into the woman that I am, and becoming.

But...this...right now...the life that I live right now...just feels so right. For once in my life...I revel in where I am. I'm not running from anything, I'm not tempted by any pie-in-the-sky safe options anyone offers me. I see the vision, I have written it down and made it plain...and nothing will deter me. I LOVE MY LIFE...This is certainly my life in the sunshine. Living by my own terms, and refusing to settle for anything...ever.

I'm not saying that things couldn't ever change...I'm only 34 for Pete's sake (side note...who is Pete anyway? And why do we care about his sake???#ThingsThatMakeYouGoHmmm #ProbablyGoogleable #IDigress) but, it would have to be something truly special that added to who I've become now to cause me to do something different. I genuinely love my life, and all those in it. 

While everyone else's New Year begins in January, mine happens in November for some reason. I'm an eccentric, remember?...my world always seems to be a bit out of sync with everyone else's. But, I declare this year as my year of coming of age. I'm excited. The clarity is absolutely unreal.

For this #Thanksgiving I am #thankful for personal growth, inner peace, the best friends a girl could ask for, a family that unconditionally loves and supports me, all while shaking their heads-quirky weirdo that I am and all, life experiences (joys, losses, gains, and pains) that give life beautiful and messy textures and layers to love...music, muses, and prose...I am grateful for life...so many times I wanted to stop living it...I'm so glad I stuck around. #JoyDoesComeInTheMorning #JustCuzSomeonesDecisionsDontMakeSenseToYouDoesntMakeThemWrong #EverybodysGotALifeToLive #KeepYourEyesOnYourOwnPaper #TrustTheChildYOURaised #ICommendMyParentsForHangingOnTightWhileITookThemOnOneHeckuvaRide #PoParents #ImaBuyThemAHouseInSanDiego #TheyDeserveABigOne #LifeWithMeAintEasy #ButItsWorthIt #ImaUnicorn

Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.
 Proverbs 22:6






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