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I Got a Made Up Mind

Today, something happened that literally took my breath away. My heart ached. My soul was being pulled apart at the seams...All I had in my arsenal was the name of Jesus. But, you know what? That weapon was more than enough.
And the more I said His precious name...The more that righteous anger built in my soul. The more that I called on my Savior. The stronger I became on the inside...until I realized that I'm tired.
You know, a lot of things in life don't change until your tired. An evangelist, Johnathan Suber, came to my church this past Sunday, and said that desperation gives birth to miracles. Desperation typically comes when you're tired...sick and tired of being sick and tired....and I am tired of the devils CRAP!
Today, I was tempted to talk about, complain about, cry about this problem...but, instead...I talked to the problem about my Jesus.
I WILL be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. The devil WILL NOT beat up on me and my family ANYMORE! He is a defeated foe...A chump, a loser, a lame, a punk, a nobody!! He's been disarmed, embarassed, overruled, mastered, rendered powerless, and all of his works destroyed by the King of Kings and Lord of Lords! Hes a wanna be...a poser, and a liar! He CANNOT have me! He cannot have my husband! He cannot have my marriage! He cannot have our children! He cannot have my home, my money, my peace, my joy, my strength, my laughter, my hope, my smile, my health, my happiness, my wealth, my prosperity, my dreams!...He cannot have MY LIFE! He will NOT take not nah nother thing from me! I shall not be moved!
I am the child of the Most High God. I'm not a mere slave, or just a servant! I call him DADDY! I'm a kings kid sitting at the right hand of the Father with Christ! I am victorious...I was made a victor over 2000 years ago when Jesus mollywhopped satan's butt, and drug his tired, sorry self through the streets of hell! I am more than a conqueror and can do all things God has assigned me to do through Christ Jesus, who gives me strength.

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