This made my day this morning. I've had some really hard circumstances that I have faced for almost 2 years now. I am coming out of it a changed person. A better person. A person with something of value to say, and to offer to others. This video sums up what I've had to truly learn over the last 2 years...DAILY. There were some days...I didn't think I would make it. I suffered from and struggled with fear, loneliness, anger, depression, suicidal thoughts, weariness, basically, just wanting to throw my hands up, and quit...EVERYTHING! but God...now, I know in the depths of my soul...A change gone come. I call it done! I am not afraid. Here I stand. Expecting...watching God bring all my dreams to pass...learning to be silent, to be still...and to KNOW that He is God.
"You don't know how "one" you've really become- until you're ripped apart. Divorce is of the devil... I wish it on no one...ever." -jj thames. Not in the mood to face the world today. so I won't. my bed is my solace... listening to my new record, tightening up arrangements, listening for more possibilities- soothes my angst. this divorce stuff irks my soul... one or two days- I barely think about it. next day...I feel like I've been hit by a bullet train at maximum speed- and just want to lay in my darkened bedroom and look at the ceiling. No tmusic, no TV...just me...my bed...and the ceiling. Sleep usually eventually welcomes me. But, then there's the dreams- and waking again to the pain. I feel like a part of me has died. It's a strange kind of pain... its a numbing abiding pain...like an irritating itch deep in your soul that you really have no kind of way to scratch. You just have to talk about it, and su...
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