This made my day this morning. I've had some really hard circumstances that I have faced for almost 2 years now. I am coming out of it a changed person. A better person. A person with something of value to say, and to offer to others. This video sums up what I've had to truly learn over the last 2 years...DAILY. There were some days...I didn't think I would make it. I suffered from and struggled with fear, loneliness, anger, depression, suicidal thoughts, weariness, basically, just wanting to throw my hands up, and quit...EVERYTHING! but God...now, I know in the depths of my soul...A change gone come. I call it done! I am not afraid. Here I stand. Expecting...watching God bring all my dreams to pass...learning to be silent, to be still...and to KNOW that He is God.
"Live one moment at a time... sometimes a day is still just too long" -jj thames. Today is the day that I took a step back, and said... "Whoa...Lord...do you know how long a year is?? That's...365 days!! 8,760 hours!! That's...that's...525,600 minutes!! 31,536,000 seconds!! and a bazillion, gagillion, moments!! Oh Lawd! What have I done??" I began to feel myself get light headed as I fanned myself, and instantly spiraled into loneliness, and despair...and kicked myself for making the lofty commitment. (Really felt like punching myself in the face) "Fix it Jesus!" is what I whispered maybe 8 or 9 times under my breath- but nothing changed. I had wrote it down, told my accountability partners...and made the promise to God. I'm stuck, and felt like throwing an all out 2-year-old-I'ma-embarrass-my-mama-in-the-store-fall-down-on-the-floor-knockin-stuff-offa-shelves-everybody-looking-at-her-like-you-need-to-whoop-your-ch...
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