Laying in bed...preparing to take on the day-taking an inventory of my life. Things are not perfect...not in the least. But...I conclude that...I LOVE MY LIFE! I am thankful for every day God opens my eyes. Everyday is a new journey...A gift...I'm eager to open it, knowing that at the end- I will have yet another precious jewel of wisdom to add to my collection. I am thankful for the people in my life-I couldn't have planned such a perfect variation of folks both personally, and professionally to be characters in my story. See, many times we focus on what we DONT have...we replay our game reel over and over, scrutinizing and beating ourselves up for what we think we shoulda, coulda, woulda done...All we see is what we are MISSING, and judge our lives and success from a wish list...but, when we take a step back and see all that God HAS done, and IS doing in, and for us- and that this life truly is short and fragile. He is in control whether we acknowledge Him or not...that wish list is as vauable as vapor, like chasing after the wind. Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow isnt promised, and doesnt yet exist. Live in the present...it surely is a gift. #goodmorning #tellyouwhatiknow #happygirljj#iwakewithapraiseonmylips #mylifeisnotmyown #goditrustyou
"Live one moment at a time... sometimes a day is still just too long" -jj thames. Today is the day that I took a step back, and said... "Whoa...Lord...do you know how long a year is?? That's...365 days!! 8,760 hours!! That's...that's...525,600 minutes!! 31,536,000 seconds!! and a bazillion, gagillion, moments!! Oh Lawd! What have I done??" I began to feel myself get light headed as I fanned myself, and instantly spiraled into loneliness, and despair...and kicked myself for making the lofty commitment. (Really felt like punching myself in the face) "Fix it Jesus!" is what I whispered maybe 8 or 9 times under my breath- but nothing changed. I had wrote it down, told my accountability partners...and made the promise to God. I'm stuck, and felt like throwing an all out 2-year-old-I'ma-embarrass-my-mama-in-the-store-fall-down-on-the-floor-knockin-stuff-offa-shelves-everybody-looking-at-her-like-you-need-to-whoop-your-ch...

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