New Levels...New Devils.

New levels...New devils. But I WILL NOT be moved. I learned a whole lot in my last season...and I FULLY intend to pass this grade with honors. Nothings gonna take my praise or my smile...nothings going to shake my faith. ‪#‎goditrustyou‬ ‪#‎happygirljj‬ ‪#‎shedonegrowedup‬ ‪#‎grateful‬‪#‎itsnotmybattle‬ ‪#‎praywithoutceasing‬ ‪#‎morethanaconqueror‬‪#‎tellyouwhatiknow‬ ‪#‎theartistlife‬

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JJ's YEAR OF DESTINY DAY 5- Divorce is of the Devil...

"You don't know how "one" you've really become- until you're ripped apart. Divorce is of the devil... I wish it on no one...ever." -jj thames. Not in the mood to face the world today. so I won't. my bed is my solace... listening to my new record, tightening up arrangements, listening for more possibilities- soothes my angst. this divorce stuff irks my soul... one or two days- I barely think about it. next day...I feel like I've been hit by a bullet train at maximum speed- and just want to lay in my darkened bedroom and look at the ceiling. No tmusic, no TV...just me...my bed...and the ceiling. Sleep usually eventually welcomes me. But, then there's the dreams- and waking again to the pain. I feel like a part of me has died. It's a strange kind of pain... its a numbing abiding pain...like an irritating itch deep in your soul that you really have no kind of way to scratch. You just have to talk about it, and su...

JJ's YEAR OF DESTINY- DAY 2- Moment By Moment

"Live one moment at a time... sometimes a day is still just too long" -jj thames. Today is the day that I took a step back, and said... "Whoa...Lord...do you know how long a year is?? That's...365 days!! 8,760 hours!! That's...that's...525,600 minutes!! 31,536,000 seconds!! and a bazillion, gagillion, moments!! Oh Lawd! What have I done??" I began to feel myself get light headed as I fanned myself, and instantly spiraled into loneliness, and despair...and kicked myself for making the lofty commitment. (Really felt like punching myself in the face) "Fix it Jesus!" is what I whispered maybe 8 or 9 times under my breath- but nothing changed. I had wrote it down, told my accountability partners...and made the promise to God. I'm stuck, and felt like throwing an all out 2-year-old-I'ma-embarrass-my-mama-in-the-store-fall-down-on-the-floor-knockin-stuff-offa-shelves-everybody-looking-at-her-like-you-need-to-whoop-your-ch...

I Got a Made Up Mind

Today, something happened that literally took my breath away. My heart ached. My soul was being pulled apart at the seams...All I had in my arsenal was the name of Jesus. But, you know what? That weapon was more than enough. And the more I said His precious name...The more that righteous anger built in my soul. The more that I called on my Savior. The stronger I became on the inside...until I realized that I'm tired. You know, a lot of things in life don't change until your tired. An evangelist, Johnathan Suber, came to my church this past Sunday, and said that desperation gives birth to miracles. Desperation typically comes when you're tired...sick and tired of being sick and tired....and I am tired of the devils CRAP! Today, I was tempted to talk about, complain about, cry about this problem...but, instead...I talked to the problem about my Jesus. I WILL be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. The devil WILL NOT beat up on me and my family ANYMORE!...

jj thames...naked.

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