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JJ's Year of Coming of Age: Day- 149 - Life is Like a Box of Chocolates...I'm Gonna Fight for the Turtles. (I Like Turtles)

"Dare to love yourself
as if you were a rainbow
with gold at both ends."
-Aberjhani

you have to...must got to...please need should...dire imperative burden heavy...
pertinent...can..will...shall...
believe in yourself...

There's going to be wolves...
there's going to be demons...
there's going to be haters...
that will all tell you that you aren't good enough
that you can't do it without whatever you seem to be missing at the moment...
that you aren't enough...
they will sneer at you...they will envy you...they will even hate you...
then smile in your face,

and then there's you...
wishing for others' sparkly "dazzling thing-a-mabob" or "gee-whiz wallah-kazam" that you've convinced yourself that if only you had...you'd be so much farther,..so much better...
struggling to keep your eyes on your own paper...like the anxiety riddled 4.0 student that doubts her answer on a mid-term...so much to lose...if you cheat,
they probably don't have the right answer for your test anyway...
remember the teacher alternates versions by rows...so...
focus on your own more-than-enough abilities...
if you make a mistake...it's a lesson...and a blessin' to behold. It'll pay off someday.

But you ain't sweatin none of that...
why? cuz you're fly...
you're on top of all this...
tell failure, fear, trepidation, depression, anxiety, and doubt you've got some grits they can kiss...

you are all the affirmation that you need...
you are all the affirmation that matters...
you know...that knowing...that glowing ball of desirous, glorious pain-joy-hope that pushes you, even when you are road-weary and feel that you can't go on...when tears cling to your eyelashes...and sobs bury themselves in the cave of your heart.
Its that self-powering pulsating orb of succor that wakes you up in the middle of the night, and when it doesn't stir you... it still invades your deepest REM cycle...whispering "I think I can...I think I can...I think I can" to every firing synapses of your brain...
Your  inner-most dreams and visions are woven between the helixes of your DNA...it's your purpose that is ancient and stamped on your eternity...in the time before time...

you cant give up
you wont give up
you SHALL NOT give up...

you are stupendous
you are most magniferous
you are super magnanimous...lavishly opulent...resplendently sublime...
you are clothed in a copious superabundance of favor, blessing, benevolence, and grace,
THIS is your time...

You've got this...
YOU'VE GOT THIS...
this is bigger than you...
embrace your whyfor...that's what its there for...
and don't you ever...dare...never...let it go.

#ThingsITellMyselfWhenIWantToFlipOverTablesAndCussPeopleOut
#ThingsITellMyselfWhenThatLittleVoiceTellsMeIdBeBetterOffDead
#ThingsITellMyselfWhenSomeoneTriesWithAllTheirMightToBreakMe
#ImUnbreakable #ImASuperhero #InCaseYouWereWondering #NowYouKnow
#BreakYoSelfFool
#ThingsITellMyselfWhenImLonelierThanLonelyCanEverPossiblyBe
#ThingsITellMyselfWhenMyJourneySeemsToBeLongerThanIWasWillingToWalk
#IfIWouldaKnownIWouldaNeverStarted #CantTurnBackNowComeTooFar
#ThingsITellMyselfWhenIHateBeingOnTheAutismSpectrum #ThingsITellMyselfWhenSomeoneDoesntLoveMeLikeIDeserveToBeLoved #ThingsITellMyselfWhenIDoubtMyPurpose #ThingsThatITellMyselfCuzTheyreTrue
#ThingsYouShouldTellYourselfCuzTheyAreTrueForYouToo #Affirmation #BelieveInYourself
#YouHaveBeenEquippedForGreatness

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 
-Romans 8:37









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