Jj's Year of Coming of Age- Day 93- Such is the Life of a Vision Hustler...

"Never. Never. Never. Give up." -Winston Churchill

I have learned over the years that disappointments, let downs, betrayals, misunderstandings, hiccups, and devastation happen...regardless of how much you plan...no matter how many precautions you take. It doesn't matter how talented, how gifted, well-liked, popular, wealthy, well-connected you are, or how good your intentions are...S*** happens. And it sucks...every time.

However, what I have also learned is...The old adages and cliches are certainly true:
It truly isn't how many times you fall...but, how many times you get up...
It really is true that everything does happen for a reason...
It also has been proven that tough times don't last, but tough people do...
In the midst of adversity...Your attitude really does determine your altitude.
It's okay to be bummed and cry...but, joy will come in the morning (even if that morning isn't necessarily the very next day...it WILL come.)
Good things fall apart, so better things can fall together.

Today...has been a doozy.
I was gut punched a few hours ago...and a project that I have worked on passionately and diligently- day and night, for the last 2 months has ground to an impasse. My heart certainly hurts, and many tears have been wiped from my eyes. Depression and self-pity knock at my door...but, they don't have a key, and once I cut an old "friend" off, they are not welcome back..so they will remain outside. Nevertheless, Today...I'm truly disappointed and could care less about who is to blame...I just know it hurts.

But, if I haven't learned anything about myself...I have learned that I am a fighter. I am a thriver and not just a mere survivor...I am the cream that rises to the top...and no matter what...I won't give up. I'ma make it...I always do...I've grieved today for a dream that I have worked hard to bring to pass, and because of matters beyond my control, has died in the womb before it could be born...but, I will try, try, and try again...Every time I venture forward and get knocked back...I learn something new...something that I wouldn't have been able to if I hadn't fallen to the ground...I always find some kind of nugget of gold, or even a beautiful diamond while I am down there. Failure is only a byproduct of someone who actually tries...and success only comes to those who take the risk to fail...

I will survive...
Tonight...I cry...
Tomorrow...I grind.
Such is the life of a vision hustler.

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